everything just slips through you're fingers, without control.

So yeahhh, right now, feeling completely rejected, sitting at my laptop on a sunny Monday afternoon. Tomorrow I'm meeting up with a friend from school in town, I hate buses, grr. Then later meeting up and having some best friend time with Opal. Haven't seen her in about two months which sucks. I don't know how much I'll be able to keep up this long distance best friend thing to be honest. I'm trying the best I can.

I recently added a new video to my youtube, a version of Third Eye Blinds "slow motion", go check it out.

I'm off to Turkey with my Dad, brother and Step Mum in 11 days, and i actually can't wait. I just want to get away from everyone here, that keeps hurting me over and over and they don't seem to realise.

Back to shool in about a month, which I will not take up a big space writing about. Just to say, going into year 10, will get harder, but I'm trying already. (:

Anyway guys, updates soon. xoxo

Nothing here will ever change.

Long time no update AGAIN. Oh well, i'm here now to update you guys on what i've been doing, NOTHING. :]

I've finished school now till September, so I've got a lot of time to just chill and finally take a break in Turkey, CAN'T WAIT. I'm also going north for a trip to see some family I haven't seen in a while. Went to see a new house today, pretty cool, from the mid thirtys. They've got a really cute baby too.

I'm so glad I'm away from school and everything right now, does my head in, but when i get back it'll be even harder, oh well, better now than never. Anyways guys, i'm off to finally do my dining room so time to get the paint clothes out ahah. Updates later in the week.

xxxx

Chipped nails & sunburn.

That basically sums me up right now, but i'm loving it, that's how I live! Party this weekend, it's gonna be good, i hope.

Soo hot out right now, and i keep getting pretty sweaty, shorts + tees at the ready. Haircut today + it looks pretty cool, just more of a fringe. Just chilling really and finishing some work. Not much to say. So i'll update in a bit. xx

Long time, no update.

Oh my goshhh, quite a while since i last updated. But I guess no one reads these much haha, oh well, they're still here and probably always will be. Last night I went to chinease for Iain's 18th was sooo nice, but didn't manage to eat too much haha, then we all went back home and took it easy.

I'm buying a few items of clothing from Hanna Beth in the next few days which should be cool but take a few days to get to me due to shipping.

Town day today to get some cheap summer clothes, i neeeeed some for my Turkey holiday, can't wait, only a couple of months! And this years already gone quickly.

Got a whole bunch of exams next week, but they should go quick, done all my aurals anyway.

Time for some more sleep before i start to get ready for the day. Stupid dog woke me up.

Be sure to check me out on stickam at any time in the day and look at my youtube, the competition still hasn't finished so be sure to rate and comment.

Love peopleeeee, Bekki. xxoo

My throattt :(

My throat is killing me, my hair is ginger, and i haven't been at school all day, at least the throwing up has stopped, but my throat has made me cough all day!! Mu bought some strepsils, so they'll maybe help ...

Been on stickam all day, but made a few friends, my hair is ginger cos' i died a bit blonde but it went ginger haha, made me laugh, but it looks pretty cool. All i did today was watch the hills and the city and some random old films that were on. Now i am recovering from my cold and watching embarassing bodies.

I'll be in school tomorrow sadly, ready for a gay science test urgh. How FUN.

Anyway, speak later bloggers, love you xoxo.

What's right and wrong...

Well, here I am, not in the best of moods blogging. I haven't update in quite a while so I decided to at 7:45 in the morning right before school. Life is so confusing right now, I just can't wait till half term next week! I was meant to go to a gig last night but I kind of forgot .. got a bit too busy hah. oh well, I'm seeing them with a friend soon again anyway [in case of fire].

Right now I just can't tell right and wrong. I know I'm growing up too fast but I can't help it, everyone else around me is, well, pushy, and expect the best at all times, I've tried my hardest and now I just think I'm breaking down. I feel like I'm pushing everyone and thing away from me. My friends are trying hard to keep me going. I just miss Opal so much it's unbelievable.

Anyway, back to the kind of positives. I watched Sid and Nancy last week and I suggest it.

Anyway, I'm off for now bloggers, just ordered some stuff from Hanna Beth, hopefully she'll e-mail back soon. xoxo

Well bloggers, here I am sitting at my laptop watching Hollyoaks, I really don't know whats going on right now, it's all ways up and down for me. One minute i'm okay, the next i'm like get lost. I NEED HELP. Jed and I are having little chats in Science this week cos' he's having a bad time at the moment. So that's pretty good, mixed emotions.

Talking to Opse at the moment makes me feel better, so it's okay. Aww Jed, love him (:

Anyway, update tomorrow. Bye lovesss

xoxo